I can relate so much to the apostle Peter! Here he was, one of the inner three, had been one of Jesus' closest companions for three years, and he still managed to mess up big time (denying Jesus)! Still, the Lord saw something in Peter He liked. God still chose Peter to be the rock upon which He built the first church. Peter was a leader among the disciples. Yeah, he messed up, but then he'd pick himself up and press on! I also wonder if Jesus chose Peter because of his willingness to be taught. In my experience with scripture God does not tend to seek out a "pulled together" or strong spirit, but seeks a willing one. Someone who will humbly allow God to change him into the likeness of Christ. That is what I strive to be.
V.13 "When they saw the courage of Peter and John and realized they were unschooled ordinary men, they were astonished and they took note that these men had been with Jesus."
-That I would spend so much time with Jesus that it would confuse onlookers that a self-proclaimed "epitemy of unnoticeable averageness" would boldly and courageously live and speak the Truth of Christ!!!
Friday, August 20, 2010
7.21.10 A Sweet Affirmation from the Lord
The past few entries have been small excerpts from my journal, and not complete thoughts, and todays will be from my journal too. I want to share a sweet answer to prayer that God recently blessed me with. The funny thing is, I'm posting this a month later, when I am once again wrestling some of these same thoughts, so to read God's response to me again, ministers to me again as it did last month.
So. The first part is my prayer to God:
"Lord, I knkow you have given me a heart fro ministry. In fact, I think back to high school years when I would day dream about reaching my peers for Christ and how I would gladly spend my days doing volunteer work if I could survive off of it. Making a difference has always been important to me. I also know, Lord, that my own stubborn foolishness has set me back in this, but I still believe this is what I am meant to do. This past year has been evidence of that. Lord, it hardly makes sense though. Ministry is full of imperfect people, I know that, but I don't know of any who have made as monumental mistakes as I have.........Still, I know you delight in busting stereotypes, so my hope is still fully intact. But how, Lord? I have no formal education, I don't have the support of my family.....Lord, how???"
And God's response to me was in my reading of Acts. Verse 3:16 says, "By faith in the name of Jesus, this man who you see and know was made strong. It is Jesus' name and the faith that comes through Him that has given this complete healing to him, as you can all see."
-Wow! What an immediate response to my prayer-and a loving one from my Father! Now it is up to me to claim that promise! Just as Peter was restored, I am as well! God saw fit to use him, and so I must believe that he is still able and willing to use me too! Praise God! Peter goes on to say, "I know that you acted in ignorance...repent then and turn to God." I love v. 24 too, "Indeed, all of the prophets from Samuel on, as many as have spoken, have foretold these days." - It's a wonderful reminder that God is not just shooting from the hip, He has had this planned since before time, and over thousands of eyars He has been preparing His people for this! Then Jesus arrives, but that is not the end of it. He is still putting things into practice for the big finale, "He must remain in heaven until the time comes for God to restore everything." (v.21) - and even then, once it is restored we have a limitless eternity with our heavenly Father!
So. The first part is my prayer to God:
"Lord, I knkow you have given me a heart fro ministry. In fact, I think back to high school years when I would day dream about reaching my peers for Christ and how I would gladly spend my days doing volunteer work if I could survive off of it. Making a difference has always been important to me. I also know, Lord, that my own stubborn foolishness has set me back in this, but I still believe this is what I am meant to do. This past year has been evidence of that. Lord, it hardly makes sense though. Ministry is full of imperfect people, I know that, but I don't know of any who have made as monumental mistakes as I have.........Still, I know you delight in busting stereotypes, so my hope is still fully intact. But how, Lord? I have no formal education, I don't have the support of my family.....Lord, how???"
And God's response to me was in my reading of Acts. Verse 3:16 says, "By faith in the name of Jesus, this man who you see and know was made strong. It is Jesus' name and the faith that comes through Him that has given this complete healing to him, as you can all see."
-Wow! What an immediate response to my prayer-and a loving one from my Father! Now it is up to me to claim that promise! Just as Peter was restored, I am as well! God saw fit to use him, and so I must believe that he is still able and willing to use me too! Praise God! Peter goes on to say, "I know that you acted in ignorance...repent then and turn to God." I love v. 24 too, "Indeed, all of the prophets from Samuel on, as many as have spoken, have foretold these days." - It's a wonderful reminder that God is not just shooting from the hip, He has had this planned since before time, and over thousands of eyars He has been preparing His people for this! Then Jesus arrives, but that is not the end of it. He is still putting things into practice for the big finale, "He must remain in heaven until the time comes for God to restore everything." (v.21) - and even then, once it is restored we have a limitless eternity with our heavenly Father!
Monday, August 2, 2010
7.20.10 Acts 2:42-47
I LOVE the Acts 2 church!! Here's the passage:
"They devoted themselves to the apostles teaching and to the fellowship to the breaking of bread and to prayer. Everyone was filled with awe and many wonders and miraculous signs were done by the apostles. All the believers were together and had everything in common. Selling their possessions and goods, they gave to anyone as he had need. Everyday they continued to meet together in the temple courts. They broke bread in their homes and ate together with glad and sincere hearts, praising God and enjoying the favor of all the people. And the Lord added to their number daily those who were being saved."
How fantastic it would have been to be an apostle of Jesus Christ while He lived, then to be among the first to receive the Holy Spirit! What fire they must have had - speaking in tongues and healing the lame - what faith! It remind me of the book about Brother Yun in China and the many miracles he witnessed - which were coupled by such horrible persecution.
I love the Acts 2 church because I believe it is the ideal of what church ought to be. They shared everything - including joys and burdens; they devoted themselves to learning about God; they fellowshipped-building one another up-EVERYDAY!! Its a portrait of how God intended family to be!
"They devoted themselves to the apostles teaching and to the fellowship to the breaking of bread and to prayer. Everyone was filled with awe and many wonders and miraculous signs were done by the apostles. All the believers were together and had everything in common. Selling their possessions and goods, they gave to anyone as he had need. Everyday they continued to meet together in the temple courts. They broke bread in their homes and ate together with glad and sincere hearts, praising God and enjoying the favor of all the people. And the Lord added to their number daily those who were being saved."
How fantastic it would have been to be an apostle of Jesus Christ while He lived, then to be among the first to receive the Holy Spirit! What fire they must have had - speaking in tongues and healing the lame - what faith! It remind me of the book about Brother Yun in China and the many miracles he witnessed - which were coupled by such horrible persecution.
I love the Acts 2 church because I believe it is the ideal of what church ought to be. They shared everything - including joys and burdens; they devoted themselves to learning about God; they fellowshipped-building one another up-EVERYDAY!! Its a portrait of how God intended family to be!
Thursday, July 29, 2010
7.9.10 Acts 1:1-11
I love that Jesus did not merely make an appearance after His death, like a magician and in a cloud of smoke pronounce "Ta-Da!" Instead He revealed Himself in personal ways, because He is such a relational, loving God. And, as verse 3 says, He "gave many convincing proofs that He was alive." Its quite marvelous! He then spent over a month doing much of what He did in His three years of ministry prior to the cruxifiction> spending time with and teaching His followers. He must have really had their attention!! And it was not as though He died by a single gunshot. Nobody could argue, "maybe it was all a hoax" "it was just a flesh wound" "and besides did anybody REALLY see it?" No. His beatings, His humiliation, every step of that walk to Calvary was public and undeniable! And days later He sits with them again to break bread?!
The disciples, to me, were a bunch of average Joe's, with average smarts, average hang-ups, and average temperaments. They spent much of their time before Jesus death trying to make sense of what Jesus was telling them, through no fault of the Savior. I imagine them walking around after Jesus death in a mixture of grief and bewilderment thinking, "Well, that's not quite how I thought this Messiah-thing was going to pan out." And even after Jesus' resurrection, they were still stuck on matters that were irrelevent in the grand plan of the Almighty God (v.7&8). This is both encouraging because I get so frustrated w/ my own lack of understanding-but they'd witnessed it all first hand and still struggled - so I don't feel AS inadequate. But also discouraging a little too because they'd wintessed it first hand and still struggled- so do I stand a chance?!
Enter: The Holy Spirit!!! "With God, all things are possible." Pre-HS the disciples were knocking heads with doubt, denial, and discouragement. The Post-HS crew were STRONG, solid, super-leaders! BLAM! The TV monitor screen remains black until someone plugs it into a power source!
The disciples, to me, were a bunch of average Joe's, with average smarts, average hang-ups, and average temperaments. They spent much of their time before Jesus death trying to make sense of what Jesus was telling them, through no fault of the Savior. I imagine them walking around after Jesus death in a mixture of grief and bewilderment thinking, "Well, that's not quite how I thought this Messiah-thing was going to pan out." And even after Jesus' resurrection, they were still stuck on matters that were irrelevent in the grand plan of the Almighty God (v.7&8). This is both encouraging because I get so frustrated w/ my own lack of understanding-but they'd witnessed it all first hand and still struggled - so I don't feel AS inadequate. But also discouraging a little too because they'd wintessed it first hand and still struggled- so do I stand a chance?!
Enter: The Holy Spirit!!! "With God, all things are possible." Pre-HS the disciples were knocking heads with doubt, denial, and discouragement. The Post-HS crew were STRONG, solid, super-leaders! BLAM! The TV monitor screen remains black until someone plugs it into a power source!
Thursday, June 17, 2010
31 Days Of Prayer For Your Child
31 Days of Prayer for Your Child
1. Pray for your child’s parents, and their parenting. For the continual surrender of your child into God’s capable and just hands.
2. Pray for safety, securing protection from harm. Pray that they would use wisdom in uncertain situations. Pray for God’s presence and protection during times and in places where parents cannot control.
3. Pray that your child will feel loved and accepted. Pray that they would be affirmed. That they would be shown unconditional love often and that they would enjoy freedom from fear.
4. Pray for your child’s eternal future; pray that your child would know God, accept Jesus Christ as his/her personal Lord and Savior if they haven’t already, and that they would pursue the Lord for the rest of their lives.
5. Pray that your child will resist rebellion and honor his/her mother and father, pray that they would maintain good family relationships
6. Pray that your child will attract godly friends and role models, pray for those people in your child’s life that have influence on them. Pray that they would be godly people, and that your child would have the boldness and courage to sever ties to anyone with negative influence on them
7. Pray that your child will develop a hunger for the things of God, that they would pursue Him with wild abandon, that they would feed that hunger with prayer and God’s Word at every opportunity, and hide His word in their hearts
8. Pray that your child will be the person God created him/her to be and not seek to be anyone else. Pray that they would have confidence in who they are in Christ, that they are capable, and that they would be kept from any shame
9. Pray that your child will follow the Truth and reject lies. Pray against their culture that seeks to devour them and keep them from God.
10. Pray that your child will enjoy a life of health and healing, pray that your child will have the motivation for proper body care, that they would not be given to gluttony, that they would honor their bodies as temples of the Holy Spirit
11. Pray that your child will have instilled the desire to learn and grow as a person
12. Pray that your child will identify his/her God-given gifts and talents and use them to minister to others.
13. Pray for your child’s bedroom, home, that they would be and remain places of rest and safety for your child. Pray that they would be sanctuaries for your child.
14. Pray for your child’s school, that godly freedoms would be protected, that teachers and faculty would bless their lives and be sources of encouragement and guidance. Pray for their safety and security. Pray that their academics would challenge and stretch them in healthy ways.
15. Pray that your child will receive a sound mind and that he/she would use it! Pray for wisdom and discernment for your child. That they would pursue what is right and just and that they would stay alert.
16. Pray that your child will know the joy of the Lord. Pray that it would be their strength. Pray that they would know the peace that transcends all understanding.
17. Pray for the destruction of an inheritance of family bondage. Pray that the sins of his/her mother/father would not be passed on to them but that the cycle of sin would be broken
18. Pray that your child will avoid alcohol, drugs, and other addictions
19. Pray that your child will reject sexual immorality, pray that they would remain pure and undefiled, that they would have a godly view of sex and intimacy, pray that they themselves would be attracted to holiness and purity
20. Pray that your child will find the perfect mate for him/her, that they would not compromise, pray for that future spouse, wherever they are at right now.
21. Pray that your child will walk in repentance and live free of unforgiveness
22. Pray that God will break down any ungodly strongholds in his/her life
23. Pray that your child will continue to grow in Faith, that they would not lean on their own strengths or rely on other people but that they would lean on God, surrendering all things to Him, trust that God has prepared a future for him/her, and obey regardless of knowing what that future holds.
24. Pray that your child will be able and willing to communicate, to ask questions, to seek Truth, and to trust.
25. Pray that your child will be competent, willing, eager to good, and able to finish tasks big and small. That they would be responsible. “Whatever you do, do it all for the Lord.”
26. Pray for your child’s emotions. That they would be able to work through their feelings, to be wise against acting on emotions alone, and that they would be quick to listen, slow to speak, and slow to become angry.
27. Pray that your child would use words wisely. To build others up, to speak Truth, and that they would hold a tight reign on their tongue. Pray that your child would speak life.
28. Pray that your child would be kept from jealousy. That they would not envy the world, that they would be content in all circumstances.
29. Pray for your child’s mind. That it would be kept pure. That they would be kept from images that would poison them. Pray that your child’s mind would be continuously exposed to that which would bring glory to God and keep them from guilt. Pray that whatever is noble, whatever is pure, trustworthy, acceptable, that they would think on these things.
30. Pray for perseverance for your child. That during the storms of life your child will hold tightly to the Truth and with the power of God that they lean on, will weather the ups and downs of life and come out the other end stronger and more firmly rooted.
31. Pray with thanksgiving for your child. Thank the Lord for the privilege of being his/her parent, for all the things about your child that are unique and amazing. Thank God for being the perfect role model of what a parent should be. Thank God for the special love that is unique between a parent and their child.
1. Pray for your child’s parents, and their parenting. For the continual surrender of your child into God’s capable and just hands.
2. Pray for safety, securing protection from harm. Pray that they would use wisdom in uncertain situations. Pray for God’s presence and protection during times and in places where parents cannot control.
3. Pray that your child will feel loved and accepted. Pray that they would be affirmed. That they would be shown unconditional love often and that they would enjoy freedom from fear.
4. Pray for your child’s eternal future; pray that your child would know God, accept Jesus Christ as his/her personal Lord and Savior if they haven’t already, and that they would pursue the Lord for the rest of their lives.
5. Pray that your child will resist rebellion and honor his/her mother and father, pray that they would maintain good family relationships
6. Pray that your child will attract godly friends and role models, pray for those people in your child’s life that have influence on them. Pray that they would be godly people, and that your child would have the boldness and courage to sever ties to anyone with negative influence on them
7. Pray that your child will develop a hunger for the things of God, that they would pursue Him with wild abandon, that they would feed that hunger with prayer and God’s Word at every opportunity, and hide His word in their hearts
8. Pray that your child will be the person God created him/her to be and not seek to be anyone else. Pray that they would have confidence in who they are in Christ, that they are capable, and that they would be kept from any shame
9. Pray that your child will follow the Truth and reject lies. Pray against their culture that seeks to devour them and keep them from God.
10. Pray that your child will enjoy a life of health and healing, pray that your child will have the motivation for proper body care, that they would not be given to gluttony, that they would honor their bodies as temples of the Holy Spirit
11. Pray that your child will have instilled the desire to learn and grow as a person
12. Pray that your child will identify his/her God-given gifts and talents and use them to minister to others.
13. Pray for your child’s bedroom, home, that they would be and remain places of rest and safety for your child. Pray that they would be sanctuaries for your child.
14. Pray for your child’s school, that godly freedoms would be protected, that teachers and faculty would bless their lives and be sources of encouragement and guidance. Pray for their safety and security. Pray that their academics would challenge and stretch them in healthy ways.
15. Pray that your child will receive a sound mind and that he/she would use it! Pray for wisdom and discernment for your child. That they would pursue what is right and just and that they would stay alert.
16. Pray that your child will know the joy of the Lord. Pray that it would be their strength. Pray that they would know the peace that transcends all understanding.
17. Pray for the destruction of an inheritance of family bondage. Pray that the sins of his/her mother/father would not be passed on to them but that the cycle of sin would be broken
18. Pray that your child will avoid alcohol, drugs, and other addictions
19. Pray that your child will reject sexual immorality, pray that they would remain pure and undefiled, that they would have a godly view of sex and intimacy, pray that they themselves would be attracted to holiness and purity
20. Pray that your child will find the perfect mate for him/her, that they would not compromise, pray for that future spouse, wherever they are at right now.
21. Pray that your child will walk in repentance and live free of unforgiveness
22. Pray that God will break down any ungodly strongholds in his/her life
23. Pray that your child will continue to grow in Faith, that they would not lean on their own strengths or rely on other people but that they would lean on God, surrendering all things to Him, trust that God has prepared a future for him/her, and obey regardless of knowing what that future holds.
24. Pray that your child will be able and willing to communicate, to ask questions, to seek Truth, and to trust.
25. Pray that your child will be competent, willing, eager to good, and able to finish tasks big and small. That they would be responsible. “Whatever you do, do it all for the Lord.”
26. Pray for your child’s emotions. That they would be able to work through their feelings, to be wise against acting on emotions alone, and that they would be quick to listen, slow to speak, and slow to become angry.
27. Pray that your child would use words wisely. To build others up, to speak Truth, and that they would hold a tight reign on their tongue. Pray that your child would speak life.
28. Pray that your child would be kept from jealousy. That they would not envy the world, that they would be content in all circumstances.
29. Pray for your child’s mind. That it would be kept pure. That they would be kept from images that would poison them. Pray that your child’s mind would be continuously exposed to that which would bring glory to God and keep them from guilt. Pray that whatever is noble, whatever is pure, trustworthy, acceptable, that they would think on these things.
30. Pray for perseverance for your child. That during the storms of life your child will hold tightly to the Truth and with the power of God that they lean on, will weather the ups and downs of life and come out the other end stronger and more firmly rooted.
31. Pray with thanksgiving for your child. Thank the Lord for the privilege of being his/her parent, for all the things about your child that are unique and amazing. Thank God for being the perfect role model of what a parent should be. Thank God for the special love that is unique between a parent and their child.
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
The Sin Barge
Today I heard for the first time about the great pacific garbage barge. Apparently, given the natural currents, much of the trash that is disposed of into the ocean collects around a certain place in the Pacific. Over time this has created a massive barge of garbage twice the size of Texas!! Can you imagine what that must look like? What it must smell like?
Now that reality is beyond disturbing, but what is more disturbing is this. We all have our own sin barge. Trash from our sins which we put "out of sight out of mind" instead of dealing with, does it really disappear? The answer is no. Just because you refuse to acknowledge it does not mean it is not there. It wreaks havoc on our lives- and it just plain reaks! Think about the sin in your life, in your past. Can you count how many times you have made a bad choice? Done what you knew to be wrong? Lied? Stolen? Cheated? Now you have this monstrous pile of wasted debris floating around your life. What was meant to be a beautiful sea of blessings and communion with God. What can you do with it? Can you fix every wrong? No way.
Thankfully, God made a way to handle the barge in our lives. He sent His Son, Jesus Christ, to the earth to live and die to take on our trash, our waste. He invites us to confess our sins to Him, cast all our cares onto Him. And then what? He washes us white as snow. What freedom! What a gift!
Now that reality is beyond disturbing, but what is more disturbing is this. We all have our own sin barge. Trash from our sins which we put "out of sight out of mind" instead of dealing with, does it really disappear? The answer is no. Just because you refuse to acknowledge it does not mean it is not there. It wreaks havoc on our lives- and it just plain reaks! Think about the sin in your life, in your past. Can you count how many times you have made a bad choice? Done what you knew to be wrong? Lied? Stolen? Cheated? Now you have this monstrous pile of wasted debris floating around your life. What was meant to be a beautiful sea of blessings and communion with God. What can you do with it? Can you fix every wrong? No way.
Thankfully, God made a way to handle the barge in our lives. He sent His Son, Jesus Christ, to the earth to live and die to take on our trash, our waste. He invites us to confess our sins to Him, cast all our cares onto Him. And then what? He washes us white as snow. What freedom! What a gift!
Monday, November 23, 2009
11/23/09
Servanthood. It's on my mind and heart constantly lately. It's my brain's topic d'jour! Lots of us like to lead. Jesus said to lead, you must serve. I love this, but it can be easier said than done. People look at serving as something we do here and there. I praise God because I know it is meant to be more, it is meant to be a lifestyle. In my selfish pride, I have for a long time desired to be a leader. It is always high on the ranks when I take those spiritual gifts tests. Who wouldn't rather give an inspiring speech over cleaning up messes and not even getting noticed for it? Well, lately, I wouldn't. I am learning that when you serve God with humility and sincerity, surrendering your desire for recognition or personal gain, there is a blessing that is given from Him to you. It is something there's simply no words for. A joy that seeps deeper into your skin than any surface skimming accolades of your peers. God's joy. I smile just at the thought of it. It goes beyond the satisfaction of knowing you did a good thing.
How did this happen? I am not sure. But if I had to guess, at some point-out of love for and obedience to God-I determined to fill a need if I see one. Whether in front of others or in private, to go the extra mile. Now, there have been many times when my pride or selfishness has fought and won when I had an opportunity. But not giving up. I learned to stifle that urge to "show off" my work, in fact, I might go out of my way to hide that it was me doing it. Doing this repeatedly established a habit. That mysterious amazing joy I spoke of earlier definitely fueled that habit. Before I knew it, serving had become one of my most favorite things to do. If you ask me when i die, whether I would rather leave the legacy of being an influential leader or a humble servant, I would choose the latter. Better yet, I would rather not be remembered so much at all as God be glorified. Let my quotes be marked anonymous, but let them exalt the Name above all names!
How did this happen? I am not sure. But if I had to guess, at some point-out of love for and obedience to God-I determined to fill a need if I see one. Whether in front of others or in private, to go the extra mile. Now, there have been many times when my pride or selfishness has fought and won when I had an opportunity. But not giving up. I learned to stifle that urge to "show off" my work, in fact, I might go out of my way to hide that it was me doing it. Doing this repeatedly established a habit. That mysterious amazing joy I spoke of earlier definitely fueled that habit. Before I knew it, serving had become one of my most favorite things to do. If you ask me when i die, whether I would rather leave the legacy of being an influential leader or a humble servant, I would choose the latter. Better yet, I would rather not be remembered so much at all as God be glorified. Let my quotes be marked anonymous, but let them exalt the Name above all names!
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